So I’ve been home with my daughter for almost 2 years now, and I have to admit I am actually amazed at how happy and content I am.
When I was working full-time, I had a few mummy friends (and knew of several others) who quit to stay at home, while the rest of us glared angrily and celebrated their good fortune.
Becoming a work-at-home mum was not part of my original plan. I love the idea of focusing only on my home, my children and my husband and not balancing hours of other work on top of it all.
That’s what I always thought that I would do, but then crochet found me turning my little hobby into a small income-earning opportunity and career pursuit, it surprised me, a lot of the time it overwhelmed me, but ultimately thrilled me and became something wonderful that I didn’t know I wanted (but am so glad that I have).
Spending time with Little Squidge inspires me everyday and she fills me with so many ideas I’m bursting at the seams if only I possessed a time turner I could fit everything in ? This week we finished a lovely rainbow dragonfly blanket a pattern by ‘Charmed By Ewe’ it was so quick and easy to work up but the effect is just beautiful.
Although I love sitting and working on orders, I do worry sometimes that I must be a horrendous mum when I’m working to a tight deadline and I don’t have the time to sit and do puzzles with Little Squidge or get out the paints like she’s been asking me to do for the past 3 days.
It’s so hard some afternoons when you are sorting out a sudden influx of messages and relying on Raa Raa the Noisy Lion to babysit for an hour or so, but then comes bath and bedtime snuggles with our favourite book (I Love you Little Monster) and I know that she doesn’t resent me and when we’re cuddling and she puts her arms around me stretches up and kisses my nose I realise perhaps I’m not doing such a terrible job.
Once she’s sleeping and the house is still except for the sound of a cat with an abnormally loud purr and the soft tap tapping of Mr Squidge’s laptop I take some time to reflect with my crochet and as I see an order progress and grow I’m filled with a huge sense of achievement. Everyday maybe a challenge and we take small steps along the way but I’m doing this, I’m making this work for us and I love it, happy mummy, happy home, happy family ?
Then we wake up in the morning, Little Squidge puts toast in the washing machine, decides she would rather share the cats breakfast and throws a sock down the toilet shouting ‘Bye Bye Sock’ all before 9:00 and the self doubting begins again……..
So the learning curve continues while I find my way through this crazy new world that is the WAHM (Work At Home Mum)
With Fluffy Love and Squishes
Fluffy & Squidge xx